SPEAK LIFE OVER YOURSELF

When doctors told myself and my parents they don't know if I am going to make it or the cancer is so big, I said cancer you are so small.

When friends and family saw me, they'd say "shame are you ok?", my response, "I am well", "I am not sick I am healed." How could I say this, because I believed it! even though I was still have treatment. Some people thought i was in denial, no I was speaking my healing into being and I was believing. 

Life or death is in the power of the tongue, speak life over yourself stop praising your sickness or announcing how big it is. By you doing this you look at this thing you facing tell it's ok, this is how it should be NO! Start speaking to your sickness 

• sickness you Will leave my body.
• I am well, I am healed
• I will get through this
• this is just a phase I am going through
• Verbally quoting Bible scriptures on sickness over myself
• Thanking God for your healing, constantly.

You may, How can you keep speaking like this and you still feeling sick? By not focusing on the now but believing that you will be and can be done.


So come on speak life over yourself!!  

Focus

Focus on the solution, not the problem ,Walter Anderson

My focus was on getting well, it can be difficult when your in a situation that seem like there's no way out.

When going through the cancer in the breast and back it was frustrating, I cried,” when will this end!” This was because I focused on where I was, but, when I was diagnosed with the brain cancer, I kept focus on being well.

How can a person do that?

• I saw myself well!
• I was speaking positive (Mainly confessing scripture on healing)

This was and still is the two basic steps to overcoming cancer and challenges I face today.

Don't get me wrong, I felt like giving up, the only thing that helped was speaking to myself, yes my family was there but I needed to speak to myself as well.

I learnt that focusing on where I was made me depressed, it did not help with me getting well.

Don't focus on your problem, FOCUS! See yourself out of your situation be it sickness, financial difficulty on anything.

IT UP TO YOU!!!!!!

My take on cancer?

Cancer is a sickness that make you feel worthless, for a woman loosing her breast and her hair makes her feeling less of a woman. While men feel less a man cause this sickness makes him look weak.

After having some treatment, cancer patients can't face their loved ones, friends or community when they lost their hair, their skin colour changes or they pick up weight maybe gain a lot of weight. It can be a traumatic phase in a cancer patients start of their cancer journey.

Cancer is a journey don't make it your destination, people think when they are diagnosed its the end of the road. It don't have to be, yes I can't say that, you have a choice in life and every challenge you are faced with even a sickness. You can make it your destination or your journey and hit the road to your healing! Making it your destination you become negative, focus on dying, say you can't make it, you even convince yourself I am not going make it.

When you make it your journey you saying I WILL MAKE IT, with your faith, the support of your family, friends and going for treatment, above everything speaking to yourself.

Motivating yourself: I am well! I am gone make it! I am healed! This is just a phase I am going through! I spoke to myself all the time. I believe that saying, “There's light at the end of the tunnel”, I kept my eyes on the light even when I going through that dark tunnel of feeling sick and wanting to give up at times. That little light became big and big because of me focusing on the light and not the darkness.

I can say that any journey we on, at the end reaching our destination of healing, only makes you stronger.

How can you say all these things you may ask? Because I was there, people normally say been there done that. I can say been there, done that, overcame and survived that!

What it 3b's

The third B – Brain

After being in remission of the cancer in the back I started working, was working for two years then decided to try something new. I always had a love for children since I was young I would look after children, I want to England, Staffordshire. It was great experience, but not for me, I enjoyed the country side more then anything.

Came back home after a while, starter working again, I was working for a month started having very bad head aches. Went to work late, left work early as I could not concentrate, when I fainted at work one day. When woke I was in the sick bay at work, the ambulance was there and so was my father, I was out for a while. Was rushed to hospital, getting tears in my eyes now just thinking back how close I was to death. Got to hospital, doctors could not see anything wrong, went home and the pain got worse over days.

My manager told me to stay home and see another doctor, this time this doctor sent me for a head scan, to find the cancer is back on my brain. I had two tumours as big as golf balls on the brain, I told the doctor take out your golf clubs and hit this golf balls away. Doc thought I was crazy, after I was diagnosed my parents went home to fetched some things,as I had to have more tests. They could not remove the tumours because it was on a dangerous place. As I was sitting there waiting to have another scan, I said to the Lord,”Lord you have carried me through two cancers what is this on compared to the other two you carried me through”.

I was in hospital for a while before I treatment started, I had the support of an amazing family and church congregation. I had a great friend who was a physiotherapist who would come to my bed side every day to encourage me. The dosage of my chemo this time was more heavier than the cancer in the spine, the chemo drip had to run over a 24hrs period. I also had four lumper punchers containing chemo as the doctors wanted to make sure the treatment reach the tumours on the brain. Had to stay in hospital for the week, went home on Friday, sick after the two treatments, 24 years old at that stage. My mom would wash me, I had to eat healthy foods as always my this time even more, she would clean every day to make sure I don't up any germs. I got to stage where I apologised to my parents for butting them and the family through this, feeling that I am a burden to the family. Because all the attention was on me my brother was on University, my younger sister at school,

While going through treatment people invited me to speak at churches, as they could not believe I sick. I said I am not sick, no I was not in denial, I believed in Gods word more and stood on His words and promises about anything we asked That He will do it.

The main scripture was, Matthew 17 v 20 “If you have faith the size of a mustard seed you can tell this mountain to move”.

I said to this cancer mountain, be moved and I walked in healing, believing that I am well.

What is 3b's?

The second B – Back(Spine)

I was started working, after being cleared of the Breast cancer for eight months I started having very bad pain in my back. Started staying out of work, could not sit up or lay down. I went for physiotherapy and saw a psychiatrist as my Oncologist could not find the core point of where the pain was coming from.

It got so bad I could not sleep, woke my parents early one morning crying and they rushed me to hospital. Doctors where not in at that time of the morning and there I was laying in pain, thinking I was going to die of this pain. Doctors came sent me for a scan to find the cancer is in my Spine between two vertebrates, and it was worse then the Breast cancer. They called in all my family to inform them how server it was second time around, Doctors said “they down know if I am going to make it because of where the cancer is in my spine.

What does a person do after hearing such word? They don't know if your gone make it!

I felt like dying, told my parents I don't want treat, just leave me to die. Could not see my self going through this treatments again, after having much motivation and support I started treatment. It the worse period because the chemo treatment was much stronger, it made me very sick, I felt like giving up many time. But with the support of my family and people of my church praying and being there, you can not believe how support of loved one's gives you strength and will to carry on.

It was tough, my father would take me for treatment, my mom would always see to it that the house is clean, it was very important. Because of the chemo treatment making my immune system so low that if I should cold or flu it could mean I can die. Young kids also had to say away even some one with a cough or sneeze.

It was horrible!

I was 20 year old while going through treatment for the cancer in my back, then it was my 21^st birthday . As a young girl I always dreamt of having a big 21^st birthday party, here I was still going through treatment. Doctors told my parents I would need a bone marrow transplant, this meant I would not see this party I was dreaming of as a young girl! Because I would be in isolation for three month or more over my birthday. I was more worried bout the party then the bone marrow transplant. My sister and brother was test, they where not compatible. Bummer that meant going abroad and searching for a match, it could take months!

I say and believe because of the faith of my family and prayer I did not need a bone marrow transplant, I was cleared of the Cancer in the Spine. What a celebration and had a huge 21^st birthday.

To be continued........

What is 3b's ?

1^st B - Breast

2^nd B – Back

3^rd B – Brain Cancer

NonHodgkin Lymphoma

The 3B's also stands for Bee's I was stung by three bee's and it only made me stronger you should check muscles!(and sweeter)

I was 17 when I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer, was in remission for almost a year then at the age of 19 the Cancer was in my spine(Back) between the vertebrates. Then in remission for three or four years when I was diagnosed with Brain Cancer.

The first B

I had server pain in my right breast, everyone said you a young girl ag don't worry, my breast went dubble the size and as hard as a rock. I just wanted this thing removed, I had a lumpectomy, the lump was cancerous. I had my chemo therapy and radiation.

CHEMO therapy is the treatment that kills all the cancerous sell, with that the healthy sell also suffers. That's when you feel sick, you get nauseas, you loose your hair.

Loosing my hair was as cool, how can I say that? I really enjoyed being bald, I had long bushy hair it was always a hassle drying styling my hair. I want to my matric ball bald, was brides maid in my sister's wedding. I had nice time just whipping my head clean.

The only sad thing about it I felt I was robbed of that phase of my life, not enjoying this others enjoyed at that time. Lost a few friends as they did not know how to handle this or seeing me in this state.

My family was a real great amazing support.

The Questions

There are many Questions one ask when diagnosed and fighting this sickness:

• Why me?
• When is this going to end?
• Will I make it?
• How will I make it?
• Is the any hope for me?
  And much more.

 

We are human and some time feel weak and feel like giving up, I had these feelings many time. Being diagnosed three times with cancer. I learn that self-motivation is very important for your well being when facing challenges. Yes there are other important factors that play a big role in you surviving your challenges, your faith, your family and friends support. 

My Faith in the Lord Jesus is one the main reason I am still alive today, standing on the word of God!!

There was many times I left like giving up on life when I was going through treatment, but with speaking to myself and standing on the word of God, the love and support of my amazing family. I am still here. But by the grace of God!!!

When I look back and see what I have overcame, I walk through life with confidence that nothing can get me down. My encouragement is look back on what you've over come and know those things I've overcame only made me stronger for new challenges I will be facing.

I enjoy motivating and make people smile, make people know who they are and what they are capable of doing and overcoming. I use my life journey to motivate people as we can only speak of experience.